Well its now Day 03 of the 30 Days of Truth, todays topic is to write Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Though it sounds like an easy enough topic to write on its not as easy as it might sound. I keep trying to think of things that I need to forgive myself about or for and try as I might there is only one area that I keep thinking I need to forgive myself for and that is not taking the actions that would have prevented myself getting raped or worse yet the actions that followed it happening and the guilt and everything that went along with it. Even years later I can talk about it and everything but forgive myself for the actions that I did after it took place is another matter.
One day I hope that I am able to let it go and let it be put to rest, but right now its not going to happen because right now I just don’t have it within me to do so, I’m still learning and growing and with Norman’s help putting that part of my past where it belongs in the past.