3 Years ago today Norman and I went to Denver Colorado Temple to get sealed to each other, it is hard to believe that it was not that long ago as it feels so much longer than that.
A lot has happened in these years, more then I could have imagined back then. I never would have thought that we would be here as we are today three years later. Not only are we now in a different ward, but we are not as active as we once were. Mostly because of my health declining and also because of the cost of getting to and from church – sadly we have to now factor in that and if it is outside of our monthly budget then we either have to go without something or no go to one appoint of something to have the gas or funds to be able to get there.
But regardless of if we attend or don’t we still hold to what we started out oh so many years ago. We do it in our home and try to keep the day as it is meant to be kept.
Sigh’s dad fell the other night, he is started to get weaker in his ability to stand never mind walk with the aid of his walker.
He is also less hungry than before by his own admission. At this rate, I’m praying that he makes it to Christmas so we have at least one more Christmas together.
Part of me feels that he will, of course, be here, the other part prays he finds peace sooner.
::crying::
I don’t want to have him go yet, I don’t want my dad dead n gone from this world. I know I’ll see him in the next life, but that doesn’t stop the pain at this moment.
I still need to get the courage to call around for pricing for cremation services. I can’t bring myself to do it just yet, even though it needs to get dun sooner rather than later.
My heart is breaking and my mind in turmoil. I lost my mom unexpectedly, one moment she was there when I went to work then shortly thereafter I get a call telling me she has two hours to live.
I don’t know if it is worst for a fast death out of the blue or this prolonged process that is gut-wrenching and so emotionally painful. Actually I prefer the fast version I think, then again I’ve never fully dealt with my emotions for losing my mom so that is equally not healthy or good.
Oh well, thanks for reading.