I am not sure how to do this to various degrees, other then to write and write till things get said in general. There are a couple people that I wish I hadn’t gotten to know them to various degrees because they hurt me deeply and caused me trouble. But at the same time, I wonder if I had not known them, had not gotten involved with them would I be at the place I am in my life right now? Or would I be on a completely different path then I am right now?
That is how I look at it and think about it when it comes to wishing that I didn’t know someone in my life, because to me everyone I’ve interested with over the years for the good and not so good has left some sort of impact on me and without that impact my life likely would not be as it has come out to be. Then again had they not happened I wouldn’t know any better because it wouldn’t have happened thus I wouldn’t know anything different then as life was for me.
So as might as one might not like some people one has known in life, it has its own impact that one learned to deal with in ones own way.