Abusive people typically think they are unique, really so different from other people that they don’t have to follow the same rules everyone else does. But rather than being unique, abusers have a lot in common with one another, including their patterns of thinking and behaving. The following are some of their characteristics.

Excuse Making
Instead of accepting responsibility for his actions, the abuser tries to justify his behavior with excuses. For example: “My parents never loved me” or “My parents beat me” or “I had a bad day, and when I walked in and saw this mess, I lost my temper” or “I couldn’t let her talk to me that way. There was nothing else I could do.”

Blaming
The abuser shifts responsibility for his actions away from himself and onto others, a shift that allows him to justify his abuse because the other person supposedly “caused” his behavior. For example: “If you would stay out of it while I am disciplining the kids, I could do it without hitting them.” Or he may say, “She pushes my buttons.” Statements like this are victim blaming. If he really had buttons she could push, she would push the one that says, “vacuum” instead the one that says, “hit me”.

Redefining
In a variation on the tactic of blaming, the abuser redefines the situation so that the problem is not with him but with others or with the outside world in general. For example, the abuser doesn’t come home for dinner at 6 p.m. as he said he would; he comes home at 4 a.m. He says, “You’re an awful cook anyway. Why should I come home to eat that stuff? I bet the kids wouldn’t even eat it.”

Success Fantasies
The abuser believes he would be rich, famous, or extremely successful if only other people weren’t “holding me back.” He uses this belief to justify his abuse. The abuser also puts other people down verbally as a way of making himself look superior.

Lying
The abuser controls the situation by lying to control the information available. The abuser also may use lying to keep other people, including his victim, off-balance psychologically. For example, he tries to appear truthful when he’s lying, he tries to look deceitful even when he’s telling the truth, and sometimes he reveals himself in an obvious lie.

Assuming
Abusive people often assume they know what others are thinking or feeling. Their assumption allows them to justify their behavior because they “know” what the other person would think or do in a given situation. For example, “I knew you’d be mad because I went out for a beer after work, so I figured I might as well stay out and enjoy myself.”

Above the Rules
As mentioned earlier, an abuser generally believes he is better than other people and so does not have to follow the rules that ordinary people do. That attitude is typical of convicted criminals, too. Each inmate in a jail typically believes that while all the other inmates are criminals, he himself is not. An abuser shows “above-the-rules” thinking when he says, for example, ‘I don’t need batterer intervention. I’m different than those other men. Nobody has the right to question what I do in my family.”

Making Fools of Others
The abuser combines tactics to manipulate others. The tactics include lying, upsetting the other person just to watch his or her reactions, and encouraging a fight between or among others. Or, he may try to charm the person he wants to manipulate, pretending a lot of interest or concern for that person in order to get on her or his good side.

Fragmentation
The abuser usually keeps his abusive behavior separate from the rest of his life. The separation is physical; for example, he will beat up family members but not people outside his home. The separation is psychological; for example, the abuser attends church Sunday morning and beats his wife Sunday night. He sees no inconsistency in his behavior and feels justified in it.

Minimizing
The abuser ducks responsibility for his actions by trying to make them seem less important than they are. For example, “I didn’t hit you that hard” or ‘I only hit one of the kids. I could have hit them all.”

Vagueness
Thinking and speaking vaguely lets the abuser avoid responsibility. For example, “I’m late because I had some things to do on the way home.”

Anger
Abusive people are not actually angrier than other people. However, they deliberately appear to be angry in order to control situations and people.

Power Plays
The abuser uses various tactics to power trip others. For instance, he walks out of the room when the victim is talking, or out-shouts the victim, or organizes other family members or associates to “gang up” on the victim in shunning or criticizing her.

Playing Victim
Occasionally the abuser will pretend to be helpless or will act persecuted in order to manipulate others into helping him. Here, the abuser thinks that if he doesn’t get what he wants, he is the victim; and he uses the disguise of victim to get back at or make fools of others. Abusers will often claim to be the victim in order to avoid being held accountable by law enforcement. He may assert she was the one who was violent. He will display what are clearly defensive wounds, such as bite marks or scratch marks, and claim she “attacked” him. Or he will declare that the physical marks on her were caused when he was trying to keep her from hurting herself.

Drama and Excitement
Abusive people often make the choice not to have close relationships with other people. They substitute drama and excitement for closeness. Abusive people find it exciting to watch others get angry, get into fights, or be in a state of general uproar. Often, they’ll use a combination of tactics described earlier to set up a dramatic and exciting situation.

Closed Channel
The abusive person does not tell much about himself and his real feelings. He is not open to new information about himself, either, such as insights into how others see him. He is secretive, close-minded, and self-righteous. He believes he is right in all situations.

Ownership
The abuser typically is very possessive. Moreover, he believes that anything he wants should be his, and he can do as he pleases with anything that is his. That attitude applies to people as well as to possessions. It justifies his controlling behavior, physically hurting others, and taking things that belong to them.

Self-glorification
The abuser usually thinks of himself as strong, superior, independent, self-sufficient, and very masculine. His picture of the ideal man often is the cowboy or adventurer type. When anyone says or does anything that doesn’t fit his glorified self-image, the abuser takes it as an insult.

Nyxks Musings

Of all the tasks that we face in emerging from an abusive relationship, healing the damage from the abuse is the most difficult and the task that inevitably takes the longest. Our finances can be rebuilt; our emotions will rebound; bruises will heal; new friends can be made; new partners found.

But those anguishing memories; those painful thoughts about ourselves; these are difficult to escape. It can be done. But it takes time. And it takes work, and a determination to heal.

Abuse hurts. It hurts a lot. But the healing task is not so much about the pain. Because, in our minds, each abusive act is a message we recieve about us. It doesn’t make a lot of difference if the act is physical, verbal, sexual, emotional, social, financial or whatever. From the healing perspective, each abusive act done to me is burned into my memory. And each carries with a message – a message that I am unworthy. A message that I deserve to be treated with contempt. A message that my feelings don’t matter; that my needs don’t matter. A message that I am worthless, of no consequence, and little more than a source of pain for my partner.

And all of these message are lies – vicious, hurtful lies. And over time these messages build up in our memories, until the real truth about what we becomes overwritten with abusive lies. When we think about ourselves, when we react to events or people around us, we begin to react in the context of this mass of abusive distortions – in effect, the we begin to feel about ourselves to match the way we have been abused. And because all this is based on memory, and because our memory is very long-lasting, the effect of abuse on us goes on and on long after we escape from the abusive treatment.

Within in each of us is a beautiful, loving spirit. The truth about each of us that we are giving, caring, intelligent individuals; people with so much to give and so much potential in life. This is our truth. The details will vary from one person to another, but each us has a rich and precious spirit that needs and deserves to be seen, to be cherished, and be free to guide us in a loving and fulfilled life.

To heal the abuse, we have to over-write those abusive lies in our memory. We have to explore the truth of our inner spirit. We have to learn, with help from others, the things that make each of us precious, learn how to say, “I am a precious and wonderful person.” And we need to say it, and hear it, over and over again.

Just as our abusers worked over time to program our minds with lies, we have to work to re-program our minds with truth. People say that time heals all wounds. NOT! Healing takes work; healing takes determination. We know that we have been deeply wounded by the abuse. To heal, we have to accept to that there is long work ahead of us in healing. But it can be done. And even better, it need not be done alone. There are many, many others with experiences very much like ours, people who also face a long healing path. These people are there today, ready to embrace me, ready to embrace you, and share the burden of re-learning what we are truly about.

But let’s be honest. Safety is a prerequisite. There is no way we can undo the damage from abuse that is still going on. We cannot hope to save ourselves from damage at the same time are choosing to accept more damage. If you are still in an abusive situation, read on. I hope it will empower you. Certainly you can do some good for yourself, whatever your circumstance. But is your goal is to heal; to be happy; to fulfill your potential in life; to become all you can become… then you will have to free yourself from the abuse.

And, to make real progress in healing, we have to be working on putting some other emotional things in order. We need to have re-established contact with healty people, honestly discussing our experiences, so that we can establish a solid understanding of what is right and wrong in what has been happening We need a good grounding in how a personality disordered person behaves; some idea of what motivates them in these behaviors; and a grasp of how we, in coping with them, play a part in the dance of that disease Often we struggle with powerful feelings of love that draw and bind us to our abusive partner, Understanding what these in-love feelings are about, and how being in-love is different from having a loving relationship is critical to overcoming these powerful bonds And we need to face our pre-conceptions about obligation – those beliefs that we have to stay and take it because… well, we think we have to. Peeling back these accepted mandates and figuring out what is really important is critical.

Nyxks Musings

“Honey, I Love You BUT…” is NOT a declaration of love.
Joy Stevens

Your partner is constantly belittling you and abusing you while hiding behind a guise of love. The “I love you but…” person is a clever abuser.

You are being manipulated in a power play. You are probably confused and often feeling guilty. You are being verbally abused! Declaration of love, manipulation, power play, or verbal abuse?
What is it?

It is so sweet and tender to begin a sentence with this declaration of love. After all, it can be said with a smile on the face and innocent patience in the voice.

But is it tender and loving?

No!

It is actually a strategy for power and control by guilt. The “I-love-you-but… person” uses negativity for leverage.

This is really a manipulative ploy that allows him/her to remain distant while indicating that you should compromise to counteract the but… It represents withholding, not love, on the part of the speaker. And it is a form of verbal and emotional abuse.

It can also be quite psychologically damaging, then, to be in a relationship with this person. Your partner is constantly belittling you while hiding behind a guise of love.

You are being manipulated in a power play. You are probably confused and often feeling guilty. You are being verbally abused!

And what about the “I-love-you-but… person?”

This double-sided stance keeps negatives constantly focused in his/her mind.

What this person gains in power over those around him/her will be lost in love. Eventually this person usually loses much more than he/she gains in power.

Verbal abuse is often sneaky from highly manipulative and often charming people.

Most verbal abusers do not stop with one kind of verbal abuse because verbal abuse is about power, not love.

The “I love you, but…” is an easy to recognize form of verbal abuse.

Another one would be “For such a smart person you do the dumbest things like…”

or

“For a person who says he loves his children, you…”

or

“For such a creative person, you…”

or

“You know how much I like you but for a person who has your education, your work…”

or

“You know you’re my best friend and I would do anything for you, but…”

I think you get the picture now!

It can be your mom, your husband, your boss, your wife, or your so-called friend. They are all verbal abusers.

Remember, verbal abuse always escalates and is almost always followed by physical abuse, particularly if you stick around long enough.

Nyxks Musings

There are many articles around the web, printed in various newspapers and magazines they each give their advice on cravings and how its either a weakness of yours if you give in or some other thing if you don’t give in or do just a little.

Well I for one can’t say its good or bad to give in because to me it all depends on what it is you are giving into and the reasons behind giving into that craving that makes the difference. Why do I feel or even think this? Simple because to me cravings have their place within a healthy lifestyle and for some people can actually be helpful indicators to what the body is needing (regardless of what some science sites and studies say on the matter).

You seen when I have a craving there is always a reason for it, I use to crave Beef and Broccoli and when I did I knew my iron levels where on the low side (and yes tests proved me to be right) so I’d ramp up my eating of foods that are high in iron and poof there would go the craving.

If I had craving for sticky rice to me it meant that I was craving more carbs thus the best way to ditch the craving was to increase my intake of carbs, even if that meant having an extra apple, grapes or some other fruit or veggie that would be a good carb load (though I do admit to giving in to having the rice, but I also found wild rice did do the trick and a small amount with a meal actually wasn’t a bad option on occasion).

If I had a craving for chips or the like it tends to mean I’ve not been getting much salt in my daily deal (I don’t cook or add salt to anything and I don’t eat a lot of packaged foods, as a result eating under 500 mg a day in sodium is not uncommon) so I’d either have a few chips or grab a smart single bag of popcorn and enjoy it that or have a serving of miso soup which would give me the sodium kick but also be semi healthy in the process (by semi I mean at least the miso broth had some nutritional value over what the chips or popcorn has).

For me I always found a reason for my cravings – how I learned this was if I had a craving I’d think about why I was craving what I was craving, I’d go though various foods and if I kept coming back to the same food time and time again then I’d look up that food and see what nutrients they where high in or the like and if there was a more healthy option for those deals I found eating the more healthy option would cure that craving, take the the craving for iron rich foods it was a common deal for me when I was bleeding but since that’s over with the craving have disappeared completely (that and my iron levels are back to normal).

Yes there are still other cravings which have no meaning or basis when it comes to anything my body is low on or needs, they are just that cravings that have no rational need or meaning, they just are there without rhyme or reason. Many of these types of cravings I still go though the process of asking myself why am I craving this particular food or groups of foods and a lot of the time it just comes down to the fact I’ve not had it in a while and its just something I’d like to have again.

These types of cravings I do give into, but its more along the lines of I give into it when the time is right to do so, like a special occasion or the like where having such an indulgence isn’t out side of the norm or if I can share the indulgence with another it becomes a little more possible, because I’ve also found that just having a little bit of the taste of the item tends to be enough to cure the craving – like a few weeks ago I was craving sweet n sour spear ribs, N went and got himself an order of them because he wished a treat I asked if he would save two for me – he did, he actually save 4 for me and the two I asked for cured the craving and the other two well they just where a nice indulgence, but since feeding that craving I’ve not had any further cravings for such food.

Other cravings I found are related to my allergies to the item like I use to crave a tall glass of milk and if I went a day or so without it I’d go nuts with drinking it as soon as I had a chance to do so, only to end up with issues that took me a few years to figure out, going cold turkey and learning that lactose and me are not friends went a long way in me learning that my craving for dairy hurting my body, but finding alternative means of getting what daily offers the cravings have almost disappeared they are still there here and there, but the desire to drink a liter of milk in a single sitting has gone on the back burner – thus this to me is an example of a craving that wasn’t healthy but since at the time I didn’t understand the connection I gave in to it and paid for it.

Thus I say giving in to a craving might not always be a bad thing depending on what the craving is for and why you are craving that particular food. I know some people just crave various foods for no other reason they they crave them and well that is something that if that is the case you need to work out for yourself – can you figure out why you crave it? Is there a medical reason as to why this might be the case or is it related to something that is happening in your life, like if you are under a lot of stress does this type of food equal comfort or the like if so finding another food which triggers the same feelings but on a healthier level might be a good substitute to look into.

Regardless to me a craving isn’t always a bad thing to have, its how you tend to deal with the craving that is the issue and how it impacts your ability to function on a day to day basis.

Nyxks Musings

Give yourself the time you need to come to terms with the end of your marriage. There is no way to predict how long the process will take. Everyone copes differently.

The grieving process is not a straight line. You won’t find that each day is better than the one before. You may think that you are well on your way to coping after divorce and then the feelings of deep sadness, anger, and regret return.

Therapy for Coping After Divorce
Some people going through a divorce find talking to a therapist helpful. The therapy sessions are a safe place to sort through what happened and your feelings about the end of your marriage. You can examine the choices you made in your relationship to learn why you made them.

By taking a close look at your marriage and the issues that caused it to break down, you can learn how to make better choices in your future relationships. When you are ready to date again, you will have a better picture of what kind of relationship you want and need. Friends and family are supportive, but sometimes we need more help than the people who love us can give.

Another advantage to seeing a therapist is the sessions are confidential. The client is free to express him or herself freely to the therapist without feeling awkward or embarrassed about revealing private information.

Be Good to Yourself
It will take some time for your to adjust to this major change in your life. During this time, treat yourself as well as you can by doing the following.

Eat a balanced diet.
Get enough sleep.
Exercise regularly.
Spend time with friends.
If you choose to use alcohol, do so in moderation.
Fly Solo for Awhile

A New Day It’s normal to feel lonely after the breakup of a marriage. Fight the urge to deal with the loneliness by starting to date someone new right away. You need to spend some time on your own before you are ready for a new relationship.

Generally speaking, rebound relationships don’t last over the long term. If you date too soon, you run the risk of having to deal with another breakup while you are still coping after divorce. Instead, take some time to pursue some new interests or rediscover an old interest that had been pushed to the back burner.

Sign up for a class on a topic that interests you. Join a gym. Find an organization in your community that needs volunteers and sign up. All these suggestions will give you something to look forward to and may give you the opportunity to make some new friends.

Coping after divorce is certainly not easy. By giving yourself the time you need to come to terms with what has happened, you will be better prepared for your next relationship. There is life after divorce, and it can be a fulfilling one.

Nyxks Musings

Q1. The current state of diabetes technology is good in general but should be a world of a lot better then it currently is.

Q2. I wish my meter would connect to my mac instead of only being able to connect to a windows comp.

Q3. I want my cell phone to do be an iPhone to help me with my diabetes management.

Q4. I wish my insurance company paid for everything because as it is I can’t afford anything that I’m taking.

Q5. I wish Pharma would ?? because ?? (no idea what Pharma is).

Q6. I spend 30 minutes w/ my Physician/Endo. After the appointment I feel like I’m no further ahead then I was when I arrived at times.

Q7. One thing I want my Physician/Endo to know about my diabetes is that I am NOT my mom (I’ve told him time and time again) but it still seems like he thinks I should be able to control things as she has, but I’m not her and I can’t do it as she’s dun it, its just not in my cards to be able to do so.

Nyxks Musings

The following is a list of behaviors that may indicate a potential batterer. It is not the purpose of the listing to imply that every person with some of these attributes is a batterer or potential batterer.

Jealousy
At the start of the relationship, an abuser will equate jealously with love. The abuser will question the victim about who the victim talks to, accuse the victim of flirting, or become jealous of time spent with others. The abuser may call the victim frequently during the day, drop by unexpectedly, refuse to let the victim work, check the car mileage, or ask friends to watch the victim.

Controlling behavior
In the beginning an abuser will attribute controlling behavior to concern for the victim (for example, the victim’s safety or decision-making skills). As this behavior progresses the situation will worsen, and the abuser may assume all control of finances or prevent the victim from coming and going freely.

Quick involvement
A victim often has known or dated the abuser for a brief period of time before getting engaged or living together. The abuser will pressure the victim to commit to the relationship. A victim may be made to feel guilty for wanting to slow the pace or end the relationship.

Unrealistic expectations
An abuser expects the victim to meet all of the abuser’s needs, to take care of everything emotionally and domestically.

Isolation
An abuser will attempt to isolate the victim by severing the victim’s ties to outside support and resources. The batterer will accuse the victim’s friends and family of being “trouble makers.” The abuser may block the victim’s access to use of a vehicle, work, or telephone service in the home.

Blames others for problems
An abuser will blame others for all problems or for the abuser’s own shortcomings. Someone is always out to get the abuser or is an obstacle to the abuser’s achievements. The victim or potential victim will be blamed for almost anything.

Blames others for feelings
An abuser will use feelings to manipulate the victim. Common phrases to look for: “You’re hurting me by not doing what I want.” “You control how I feel.”

Hypersensitivity
An abusive person is easily insulted, perceiving the slightest setbacks as personal attacks.

Cruelty to animals or children
This is a person who punishes animals brutally or is insensitive to their pain. The abuser may expect children to perform beyond their capability (for example whipping a two-year-old for wetting a diaper or teasing children or siblings until they cry).

“Playful” use of force in sex
This behavior includes restraining partners against their will during sex, acting out fantasies in which the partner is helpless, initiating sex when the partner is asleep, or demanding sex when the partner is ill or tired. The abuser may show little concern for his partner’s wishes and will use sulking and anger to manipulate compliance.

Verbal abuse
This behavior involves saying things that are intended to be cruel and hurtful, cursing or degrading the victim, or putting down the victim’s accomplishments.

Rigid sex roles
The victim, almost always a woman, will be expected to serve. For instance, a male abuser will see women as inferior to men, responsible for menial tasks, stupid, and unable to be a whole person without a relationship.

Dual personality “Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde”
Explosive behavior and moodiness, which can shift quickly to congeniality, are typical of people who beat their partners.

Past battering
An abuser will beat any partner if the individual is involved with the abuser long enough for the cycle of abuse to begin. Circumstances do not make a person an abusive personality.

Threats of violence
This consists of any threat of physical force meant to control the partner. Most people do not threaten their mates but an abuser will excuse this behavior by claiming “everyone talks like that.”

Breaking or striking objects
This behavior is used as punishment (breaking sentimental possessions) or to terrorize the victim into submission.

Any force during an argument
This may involve an abuser holding down his the victim, physically restraining the victim from leaving, or pushing or shoving. Holding someoneback in order to make demands, such as “You will listen to me!” is also a show of force.

Nyxks Musings

Q1. What situations contribute to you feeling guilty about your diabetes self care? Nothing really makes me feel guilty about my care, other then at times wish I had more funds open to be to be able to afford all the care that I do need instead of streaching things out as long as possible.

Q2. Can visits to your HCPs (Health Care Professionals) contribute to the feelings of guilt as it pertains to diabetes self care? No seeing my doc’s don’t make me feel guilty they help as they are able to do so, but they don’t have the necessary scripts on hand most of the time so can’t fault them on that.

Q3. In what ways, if any, are you guilty of perpetuating stereotypes about the types of diabetes? I don’t really know, I tend to down play the seriousness of things about having D mostly because one to many people I’ve been in contact with already have issues with D to start with (as in most think if you are on insulin then you have to be T1 and not T2).

Q4. How have you been able to turn any negative feelings about D, such as guilt, denial, blame, shame, into positives? Can’t say that I’ve turned any negatives into positives then again I’ve no had any real negative feelings about D in general (only neg is the lack of ability to keep work once they learn I have it and so far I’ve not been able to get past that side of things, which is most frustrating to say the least).

Q5. How can we work together as a community to keep the guilt associated with diabetes from messing with our mental health? I don’t know because I don’t really worry about D itself I just try to go with the flow as best possible and not let things get me down that I can’t control.

Nyxks Musings

Easter Monday just another day for some and for other’s its a day when family, friends and what not get together to celebrate what they where not able to do so the day before for what ever reasons.

The day started out rather well in general, N and I slept in or rather N slept in I like has become normal got up around 10am and for the life of me really couldn’t get fully back to sleep so ended up getting up and doing a few things that needed doing.

I started getting the stuff together for what was to be a family gathering for Easter Monday since Brian had chosen to make it monday instead of sunday that the big meal would happen. For the meal I had to get out the cornish hens for Norman and I plus the 5 kg ham that we’d gotten last week while out and about specially for today’s event.

I’d already pulled them out and put them in the fridge yesterday so that would have time to thaw out a little (they had been put into the deep freeze to keep them till needed), so got them out and started prepping the oven for them. Why two different dishes? Simple I don’t like ham and Norman isn’t to found of it but will eat it if nothing else is there to eat (I’ll do the same but in many regards I rather avoid the side effects that I get from it) thus two different meats for a single meal.

Got them into their cooking containers and popped one into the oven (the hens first) at 375 for an hour to get them started then started cutting into the squash that Norman and I enjoy so much (we got a butternut squash this time round since the acorn squashes where so small and more useful for decoration then eating) and started hacking my way though it then prepping it to go into the microwave.

In the middle of prepping the squash dad is on the phone with mom’s doctor trying to make an appointment for her to come in as soon as possible, only to get the doc to come on the phone and say best to call the emts and get mom to the hospital asap. So that stopped a lot of the perp work as Dad, Norman and I got to work clearing things around the house so that the EMTs could get in and do what they’d need to do – once things where cleared enough dad made the call and Norman and I continued doing the rest of the hauling of things away from the entrances to our home to make way for the EMT equipment that we knew would be coming into the home plus other things that always seem to be part of the deal.

They fire department arrived first, like always since they are right at the bottom of the street, followed a few minutes later by the EMTs (who are stationed about 2 min away – about 12 blocks) they did what they needed to do with mom got her down stairs and out the the ambulance and with dad riding shot gun they headed for the hospital all the while I’m still watching the hens cook and switching them out to put in the ham.

Once they where off, norman came back into the kitchen and after having some breakfast I set him to work at peeling carrots and potatoes and chopping them up as well, while I went back to attacking the squash. During which I was making phone calls to the rest of the family about what had just happened and saying I’d keep them informed as to what was going on.

The meal wasn’t going to be as it had first been planed but it was going to be under way nun the less – because by now with the hens cooking and other prep work going on to have canceled it would not have worked very well. So getting on with what had been planned continued to degrees that it was already set to and planed for.

Once a lot of the pre work was dun I realized that I’d not gotten the buns and a few other items where missing that I’d planed on going out and getting but never got around to doing do to the happenings with mom, so I sent Norman out to get them for me. When he got back we got back to the cooking and what not – all told the cooking and pre took from about 11 am till 5 pm before it was all ready to be plated and served.

Brian and his brother arrived and Norman entertained them while I finished setting the table, pouring the drinks and plating the food. At which time dinner was called and we sat down and started to eat.

So all in all our Easter Monday dinner went off well, save dad and mom wasn’t there to enjoy it as we’d originally planned for it to happen and well dad did end up with some of it when he got home later he didn’t get to enjoy it to the same degree I don’t feel.

So a disapointing Easter weekend in general for Norman and I and the rest of our family and as it stands I’m not sure what we’re going to be doing next year, but we’ll cross that bridge as it arrises next year.

Nyxks Musings

Well another easter is upon many of us and for some its just another day without much happening, dad went off to do what he does for the paper, N and I stayed at home and did house work.

Not much of an easter in general, having pork chops with spanish rice for dinner, it should have been three of us having it but dad came home not feeling well and went directly to bed thus it was only N and I who enjoyed easter dinner together, good thing I hadn’t planned on an big meal deal or it would have just been N and I being able to enjoy it since dad didn’t even have anything after he’d woken up save for taste and tea.

Oh well an uneventful day that turned into just another day around the house in general – I really think easter here at home has run its course and is no more.

Nyxks Musings